August 11th 2008 Monday (Rainy) First day after you are gone. This departure seems different and a little bit sadder. I guess it's always like that: the one leaving is not as heart broken as the one left behind. Same case for the living & the dead I guess. I spent pretty much the whole day watching the Olympics, with the exception of 6:30 - 7:30 during which I went to Wan Chai for a HKICPA Qualification Programe Info Session. It was pretty useful and a lot of people from different background also showed up. I was in a surprisingly good mood after the session. I think it was because this is the FIRST productive thing I've done in two wasted months (with the exception of you coming back of course). At the airport, when I saw the sign "Departures North" (the gate where I said the last goodbye to you)...I was counting in my head how many departures I've faced in my life. In my opinion, too many but not enough to numb myself into not feeling anything in future departures. Baby, there are so so so many reasons why I chose to come back to HK...I'm not sure if I've made myself clear on all or at least most of them. I really wanted to give it all up as I was walking with you (and sigh, your aunt  ) slowly approaching our last goodbye and just go back to Toronto. but i reminded myself of the reasons of making such a big decision in the first place, and so now I will invest all of my time & efforts in acheivng these goals..... 1) to be employed by the big 4 & become a cpa 2) to show myself i am able to do anything i set my mind to 3) for myself to grow as a person, a friend & a girlfriend independently...and let you grow as a boyfriend without me interrupting 4) to develop the good habit of being hard-working....i've been spoiled all my life and i truly believe going through the exact opposite of being spoiled in a workplace would help me to become tougher i think i've covered the basics :) on a happier note, helen msged me with an internship position @ an advertising firm. obviously it's not my field (but I wouldn't mind changing my so-called field if I find advertising very interesting & challenging). It could be just for temporary time-killing, resume-decorating & money-earning purposes. I would dedicate all my other time in job searching...so basically,I'd just invest my HEA + shopping + tv/olympics + some sleeping time into this internship if i got selected. I think it's a fair deal as long as the workload not as much as helena's....my only request from this job is the ability for me to still job-search outside of work. Hopefully the hours & workload will not interfere. So yup..I feel very useful today! Cuz I did another productive thing - postpone my flight. i was supposed to fly on aug 15th...so i finally took the efforts to check the phone number (the phone number i got @ the counter while u were checking-in was of Air Canada stupid me :P I fly a different airline haha) AND call immediately :P so with no penalty charges, i've changed my flight to october 1st. I just randomly picked a date. If i can negotiate to start my non-existent future job in mid-Oct, I mite come back :) But i still havent called the camera fixing place yet :( they've called & left a msg about the camera and i have been too busy to call back. I promise that will be my first productive thing of the day tomorrow. Then I'm going to find out how to get my enrollment qualification accessed (for the HKICPA). I love you! and I miss you.....I was daydreaming what would it be like if you came here & worked. It was a nice daydream :) Love, Ju
P.S. current standing: China 1st with 9 Gold Metals :) GOOOOOOOOO China. 
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